There’s something important I must tell you before I begin my tale. Thing 1: I don’t have a dryer in China (meaning my clothes never exactly go back to their original state, if you get what I’m saying…) and Thing 2: I don’t weigh myself. (These are important for later, I promise).
My year in China was truly amazing. I changed and grew in so many ways. Also, I ate whatever I wanted. Cheese plates and wine and greasy street noodles and my favorite dish, broccoli dripping in garlic.
A fun part of being home after being abroad for a year is ALL THE DOCTOR APPOINTMENTS. I went into my regular doctors checkup and got on that dreaded scale (no fun, right?).
As I was waiting for the doctor to come into the room, I sat on the table in shock. How had I genuinely thought I had lost weight? How had I “let myself go?” And most importantly– will other people notice? I had no clue that I had gained weight because my clothes still fit (see, no dryer!) and I don’t weigh myself. If anything, I thought I had LOST weight.
Throughout my trip to Iceland with Lisa, I kept thinking of those damn 8 pounds. Then I realized something– I have completely changed from the girl I was one year ago, and those 8 pounds do NOT define me. My new experiences and confidence do define me.
And I loved it! I drank a bottle of wine on the Great Wall (no, not ON it. At the hostel we stayed at!) I ate my weight in curry in Thailand, and ate street food in Xian. But those experiences shaped me into the adventurous, gutsy gal I am now. Travel is now a huge part of my identity.
Yeah, I’m talking about dating. I told a guy I liked him, and it blew up in my face, but I tried. I went on Tinder dates and didn’t give up hope that the right guy is out there. My senior year of college I NEVER thought that I would have the confidence to do that.
It feels good to get into a habit of working out multiple times a week and getting those endorphins flowing. Yoga has brought me so much peace and has helped me with my anxiety and depression struggles.
When people ask me what my favorite thing about living in China is, I always say it’s my job. I know it sounds cheesy, but it’s true. I know I’m a good teacher and I LOVE my job.
Yup. I did.
This doesn’t mean I don’t value my body. This doesn’t mean that I’m not going to try to lose weight. It just means that this year, there were other things that happened that shaped me into the girl I am now. I may be a bigger size, but I have never felt more confident or aware of myself then I do now.
It’s really all about perspective.
What experiences have caused you to reevaluate your perspective?